Tuesday, April 28, 2015

Distances
Post 327

What are these strange distances between us?
I have never learnt to see you separate from me
What are these worried questions in your eyes?
I have never known you to have doubts.
What is this hesitance on your lips?
I have never felt you hold yourself back from me.

I stand still in this journey we took together
I stand on this cliff we climbed together
The winds of change have blown hard
And the waves of fear have beaten harder
But I have stood here with the memory of us.

I let my hair blow in the wind
And you run with me free
I know I held you close once
And in your eyes it was you I saw
And in your arms it was me who danced
We both knew, we have always known
We are each others story.

So what are these strange distances between us?
 I have never learnt to see you separate from me.

- RKS

Tuesday, April 21, 2015

Embarking
Post 326

Got a chance to get away this weekend - get lost in the mountains and the ocean. I wrote this poem just before leaving, before embracing the road that lay ahead... sometimes not just the trip but what we anticipate from a trip can be inspiring. The deep breath before we embark..

Come with me the dawn has broken
An adventure a new day to be stolen
We'll walk like old friends from another life
Move with the melodies of the wind

Come let's start the road awaits
We will wander and laugh
Like we have never been hurt before
We will walk these forests
And kiss the oceans...
Like we are children again..

Come let's quieten our doubts
And break our routines
Let's discover ourselves being quiet
Humbled and open
Like we have never lost before...

Time is our companion
Our feelings our guide...
Come let's go...
The day awaits...
Let's smile and run
Like we will never be alone again
-RKS



Wednesday, April 15, 2015

Holding you
Post 325

And how does an ocean hug a shore
How does a bird get lifted by the air
How do flowers kiss the rays
And how do I hold you with my thoughts?

We play on the shores of our thoughts
We are lifted by the flights of our memories
And we're touched by the warmth of our prayers
But how do I hold you with my intentions?

And how does a raindrop immerse in an ocean
How does a cloud envelope a mountain
How do stars hold on to the sky
And how do I hold you with my desires?

Immersed in our souls, we live within
We hold on steady as the winds blow hard
We try to let the doubts and fear go
We succeed and fail, we dance through this maze
We are together, we are alone, perfect and broken
And yet when I see the sun caress my skin...
A simple thought floods into my mind...
How do I hold you with my love?

- RKS

Tuesday, April 7, 2015

Present
Post 324

It's been a while since I wrote here - there has been a multitude of reasons why, and no reasons too. Such is the human mind - what we sometimes give a lot of importance in one day, ends up becoming memory in another. What inhabits our thoughts and lingers on in one moment, often fades away and we make room for what is currently present.

I have been thinking of an idea recently - the idea of inhabiting your present. Inhabiting where you are, wanting to be where you are. It's the dream isn't it? What you have being all you need. I don't think that will ever happen simply because we're blessed and cursed with an imagination, with desires and wants which sometimes lead to restlessness and pain, but also help us grow. But what we can think of is not fighting the present with weapons of the past, and fears of the future.

The idea of disconnecting our minds once in a while in our days, and breathing in. Feeling where we are, checking in with our minds, spirits and heart. Seeing where you feel empty, what feels good, what hurts, whether its loneliness or joy, frustration or contentment - being aware of it. Taking that moment to feel rather than think of your present.

Our present if you think about it is the only moment we're truly alive in. We breathe and live a moment at a time and we often spend the least time being in it. There are very few moments where we are truly there - sometimes a breath taking sunset, or something extra ordinary that stops us in our tracks, then we maybe pause and take it in. But why not in our everyday? Why not consciously?

Sometimes I think one of the truths of life which we're at constant battle with is it is hard. It is not going to get easier or come on a platter. Things are not going to magically change and relationships, friends, spirituality any of these qualities are not going to get undone or strengthened in exactly the way we want. We are going to be let down and circumstances are going to be hard at times. So do we have no choice? Are we just floating on a river - waiting for the next obstacle? Well the choice is what we do in those gaps, what we do in our small ways, in minutes we still for ourselves. The experience of life is somehow better when our spirit is growing within us. And from every pain, we are growing, we're learning.. we are experiencing the light within us which is more forgiving, more loving than the thoughts we invade ourselves with.

The present helps us know ourselves better, be kinder, be friends with ourselves - so when the inevitable blow or pain comes, we know just how to calm the ripples that wreak havoc in our mind. And when to let those go and take a deep breath and say... I am okay now. Right this minute, even if its just for a minute or two a day - I really am here, and I want to be here.